Graduate school. My next big step. Grad school officially started last week and I was a big ball of emotions. First of all, I was relieved that I was accepted. I was also ecstatic that I can continue my education in the field that I love and am passionate about. I was nervous. I am the new kid on the block so to speak.
As I sat in class that first day and looked around, everyone seemed to know everyone else. I could almost feel myself withdrawing, but NO, not this year! This year is about meeting new people and trying new things. This year is about continuing to step out of my comfort zone. How else can you get better if you never challenge yourself? It looks like I will have quite a few people to meet.
Almost on cue, I began having the “questioning” feeling. Am I doing the right thing? Am I supposed to go to graduate school? Is this all part of my plan? While I pondered my whole ball of feelings last week, I was really stuck on this last feeling, questioning. I sat down and decided to write out my goals and dreams. Here is a trick I learned from Gary V……… Write out the top goal you have, no matter WHAT it is. From there, work backwards until you get to the present time. You then have somewhat of a schedule or agenda on the steps you need to take to get you to your ultimate goal. After writing everything out and working through it in my mind, I do feel that graduate school is a step in the right direction for me.
I think we all want great things in our life and we often question whether we are making the right decision or not. I, however, got the message I needed as I sat in church. Listen for Gods call. The immediate thoughts that went through my head were something along the lines of; How am I supposed to hear God? How long do I have to wait to hear Him? What am I supposed to be doing in the mean time? Then I went back to, how am I supposed to hear Him? If you can imagine, all of these thoughts were going through my head at the same time as I was trying to listen. It was very interesting to listen to other people and how they have felt God speak to them. For some, they were awakened in the night and heard Him speak to them. For others, it was not until after the fact that they realized that this is what God intended for them to do. Still for others, it was just a nudge in a general direction, a gut feeling. This left me to do quite a bit of thinking. I think it comes down to prayer. If you include prayer in your life, especially when it comes time to make those big decisions and whether you can actually hear Him or not, He will be there with you.
I know that all of the decisions I have made in the past have led me to right where I am today. However, I feel that this is exactly where I am supposed to be. I am super excited about the amazing things that are coming this year and I know He has so much more planned for me.
As always, spread some love.