If you have read any of my past blogs or seen any of my social media accounts lately you will know that I am a huge proponent of mindset, growth, and stepping out of your comfort zone. I recently wrote about this amazing transition I have had in the last few months. While I know most of my family has noticed (I sure hope they have), I wasn’t quite sure how much y’all, the public, has noticed (I am pretty good at hiding my feelings….most of the time).
Rewind to this time exactly one year ago. I had Valentine’s Day, my brother’s wedding and my birthday all in a matter of 5 days. I bawled all 7 of those days. Yes. You read that right. I mean everyone needs a good cry now and then but I took it to the extreme.
- Nobody likes to be single on Valentine’s Day. Okay, let’s back up here. The majority of the female population doesn’t like to be single on Valentine’s Day, even though they may not admit it. (Reminder – this is just my opinion). If I am wrong, great, but last year at this time, I know that I did not want to be single. It was another reminder that I was never going to find anybody, that I would never get married or have any more kids. It would just be me and my cows one day. Did I mention when my mind runs, it runs wild?!?
- My brother’s wedding. I love my brother and his wife. They are great together, they love each other, and they are killing it at life. He is my little brother. I knew the day was coming but it came too quick for me. Let me remind you Valentine’s Day was two days before this wedding. In my mind, he was my baby brother, I was supposed to get married first. Then my mind (love when it does this, totally joking here) ran wild again. I was never going to find anyone, etc. etc… I can only imagine what my parents were thinking during those days, they are so amazing in all the support they give me.
- My birthday. This amazing event (I mean how can it not be amazing, I was born on this day!) happened two days after my brother’s wedding. 31. I was officially into my thirties now. You know what I heard instead, my biological clock just ticking away. Then the flood of tears came.
Fast Forward to one year later.
I woke up on Valentine’s Day happy and excited about life. Side note here, Mattie snuck into my room in the middle of the night so I did wake up with some cuddles, my favorite. Seriously though, I am happy with where I am at, I am happy with being alone… okay maybe not ecstatic but I am okay with being alone. I am excited about my birthday, I can’t believe I just typed that but it’s true. My thirties have honestly been some of the best of my life. I am so excited to see what is in store this year. I will say that one year older for me is one year older for Mattie, which I am not too happy about but we will take it one day at a time.
As a society, I feel we put so much pressure on people. When they should get married, when they need to have kids, how Valentine’s Day should be spent showing someone how much you love them. When in reality, it is okay to go against the norm. It is okay to wait until you find the right guy or girl for you. Besides I have learned that you have to learn to love yourself first before you can make anyone else happy – true fact.
Just remember that everyone is at a different season in their life and God has an amazing plan for you. Yes, we wish we knew exactly what that plan was or I do at least but I don’t and neither do you. Instead, I am grateful that I am here at this time right now, getting to do the things I love. I am grateful I have an amazing daughter that loves me unconditionally. I am grateful for the amazing family I have. Shout out to both sets of my parents for making me feel loved on Valentine’s Day, love y’all! I am grateful for this season I am in, for I am constantly learning every day. Next time things aren’t going your way or you are down and out. Take out a pen and paper and write 100 things you are grateful for, yes 100. If it is really hard then take some time to stop and smell the roses. You will get a reminder of all the amazing things you have going on in your life.
As always spread some love