32 and Loving Life

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If you have read any of my past blogs or seen any of my social media accounts lately you will know that I am a huge proponent of mindset, growth, and stepping out of your comfort zone. I recently wrote about this amazing transition I have had in the last few months. While I know most of my family has noticed (I sure hope they have), I wasn’t quite sure how much y’all, the public, has noticed (I am pretty good at hiding my feelings….most of the time).

Rewind to this time exactly one year ago. I had Valentine’s Day, my brother’s wedding and my birthday all in a matter of 5 days. I bawled all 7 of those days. Yes. You read that right. I mean everyone needs a good cry now and then but I took it to the extreme.

  • Nobody likes to be single on Valentine’s Day. Okay, let’s back up here. The majority of the female population doesn’t like to be single on Valentine’s Day, even though they may not admit it. (Reminder – this is just my opinion). If I am wrong, great, but last year at this time, I know that I did not want to be single. It was another reminder that I was never going to find anybody, that I would never get married or have any more kids. It would just be me and my cows one day. Did I mention when my mind runs, it runs wild?!?

 

  • My brother’s wedding. I love my brother and his wife. They are great together, they love each other, and they are killing it at life. He is my little brother. I knew the day was coming but it came too quick for me. Let me remind you Valentine’s Day was two days before this wedding. In my mind, he was my baby brother, I was supposed to get married first. Then my mind (love when it does this, totally joking here) ran wild again. I was never going to find anyone, etc. etc… I can only imagine what my parents were thinking during those days, they are so amazing in all the support they give me.

 

  • My birthday. This amazing event (I mean how can it not be amazing, I was born on this day!) happened two days after my brother’s wedding. 31. I was officially into my thirties now. You know what I heard instead, my biological clock just ticking away. Then the flood of tears came.

 

Fast Forward to one year later.

I woke up on Valentine’s Day happy and excited about life. Side note here, Mattie snuck into my room in the middle of the night so I did wake up with some cuddles, my favorite. Seriously though, I am happy with where I am at, I am happy with being alone… okay maybe not ecstatic but I am okay with being alone. I am excited about my birthday, I can’t believe I just typed that but it’s true. My thirties have honestly been some of the best of my life. I am so excited to see what is in store this year. I will say that one year older for me is one year older for Mattie, which I am not too happy about but we will take it one day at a time.

As a society, I feel we put so much pressure on people. When they should get married, when they need to have kids, how Valentine’s Day should be spent showing someone how much you love them. When in reality, it is okay to go against the norm. It is okay to wait until you find the right guy or girl for you. Besides I have learned that you have to learn to love yourself first before you can make anyone else happy – true fact.

Just remember that everyone is at a different season in their life and God has an amazing plan for you. Yes, we wish we knew exactly what that plan was or I do at least but I don’t and neither do you. Instead, I am grateful that I am here at this time right now, getting to do the things I love. I am grateful I have an amazing daughter that loves me unconditionally. I am grateful for the amazing family I have. Shout out to both sets of my parents for making me feel loved on Valentine’s Day, love y’all! I am grateful for this season I am in, for I am constantly learning every day. Next time things aren’t going your way or you are down and out. Take out a pen and paper and write 100 things you are grateful for, yes 100. If it is really hard then take some time to stop and smell the roses. You will get a reminder of all the amazing things you have going on in your life.

As always spread some love

XOXO

Casey

How Changing Your Mindset Can Change Your Life

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You might be wondering why I am feeling compelled to share my college experiences. I do promise there is a point. Every decision that I have made the last 6 years has put me to where I am today. Some of those decisions included me growing and getting out of my comfort zone. I wanted to translate how important it is to get out and grow. To experience life. When you don’t, you honestly don’t know what you are missing or what you are capable of achieving.

The semester I was supposed to graduate I took an internship with the Texas Beef Council. Yes, I postponed my graduation! Once again, God was working his magic. The decision to apply for this internship was one of the best decisions I have made. I don’t even remember how I came up with the courage to apply. I just knew when I saw the email about the internship opportunity that it was something that I was really interested in, especially since Texas CattleWomen worked so close with them. Y’all this internship, there are no words on how awesome it was. My partner in crime for the semester was the greatest. I am telling you, this was a dream come true for me. I met so many incredible people, I got to work with some of the best in the industry and this internship truly taught me to spread my wings and grow. I am so thankful for that opportunity, for the people I have met are truly amazing.

Around this time I decided to apply for Graduate school. I had no intentions of moving back “home” (Wharton) anytime soon. College Station was/is my new home, for now anyway.  Graduate school was/is rough, the whole first year and a half I felt I made the wrong decision. I was on the major struggle bus.  I couldn’t find a project to do to write my thesis on and I honestly wanted to quit and just go to work. I was really unhappy with my life, for the whole past year actually. It was the “woe is me” type thing. I was stuck and never thought I was getting out and my life was so hard, it wasn’t fair, blah blah blah. When I look at myself back then, I just shake my head. I had done so many awesome things and grown so much and when I hit a road block those negative thoughts started happening and good went to bad and bad went to worse.

Roughly 6 months ago I was looking for a way to make extra money. I didn’t want to go back to waiting tables, I loved my full-time job but I wanted something extra to try to pay off some debt and get Mattie to Disney. I made a decision that has really turned my life around. Not only my life, but my mindset on life in general. I joined Younique, which is a makeup and skincare company. I had no idea what I was doing when I joined but I figured I would give it a shot. Once again God is so good y’all! I was blessed with the most amazing black status upline. She literally took me under her wings and has worked with me and taught me to fly, because at the time I had very little experience with makeup. She is one of those amazing ladies who is always positive no matter what, she keeps the positivity, the charisma, and the “I can do” attitude in all our group chats, team posts etc. She turned me on to Mr. Ray Higdon who has been such a blessing for me. I have never met him personally but I learn sooooo much from all of his online trainings. I have seen my mindset shift from woe is me to being grateful for the opportunity to wake up and do something I love every day. Mindset is everything. If you get anything from this blog let that be it and when I say mindset, I am meaning the way you look at things. If you are constantly negative and only see the bad in people or pay attention to all the terrible things going on in this world, that is what you are going to attract. The Law of Attraction. Transition your thoughts to what you are grateful for, transition your thoughts to how you would feel when you accomplish your wildest dreams, transition your thoughts to thinking you have already achieved them. It isn’t easy. I have to work every day at it and some days are a lot harder than others. Keeping negativity and negative people out of your life is probably one of the hardest things to do, especially if they are your friends. It all depends on you though and what kind of life you want for yourself.

I have my fingers crossed that I can graduate this Fall. I haven’t started job hunting yet but I have been finalizing the vision I have for myself. I did find an incredible project that I am so grateful to be working on for my graduate work. Needless to say, I am very excited to see what 2020 has in store for me.

As always spread some love

XOXO

Casey

Every Decision You Make Changes Your Life

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Six years ago I made a decision. I packed up pretty much all of my belongings, a two year old and headed to College Station. I left my full time job with a construction company and my bartending job on the side with the goal of getting that degree. I moved in with my mom and started College full time again for the first time in 8 years. I had no idea what I was doing, but I knew that I wanted to finish my education.  I was 26 years old and boy did I feel that 26 years old. I was very shy, felt really out of place, and needless to say, had a lot of growing to do. At the time I didn’t know this decision would change my whole life, my only focus was to finish my last two years of school, go back home and eventually get married.  Needless to say, God had other plans.

That first semester rocked my world. Even with my total GPA of 3.5 at the end of the semester, I got put on Academic Probation. Yes, you read that right. You see, I was an AgBusiness major and I had taken accounting that semester and got a D! Yes! A D and I was an AgBusiness major, like I said God had other plans. At A&M, the AgBusiness program has certain core classes that you have to make a certain GPA in, accounting was one of those classes and since that was the only core class I took that semester my GPA was a 1.0. I was devastated. I can remember crying my eyes out in the back of the kitchen at Chili’s on the phone with my mom trying to figure out my life! I thought it was over but it was only getting started. I had to meet with the Dean and he actually told me about an AgEconomics program. It was similar to AgBusiness, had no core classes, had an entrepreneurship class, and I would be off Academic Probation. I was sold and switched programs.  See, I had had a dream of owning a feed store one day. When I was younger, I would go Hallettsville when we went to our deer lease and they had this feed store there that I loved! I wanted one similar but a little bigger sort of like the D&D store in Seguin.  By the way, if you have never seen that store it is HUGE!

During that first semester I also took an Animal Science class. This class changed my life, period. Everything that I thought I had wanted to do workwise was out the window. Besides the feed store, I now had new dreams. I wanted to run a cattle operation and I wanted to be involved with Agriculture. It took me roughly a year of taking Animal Science classes along with my other course load but I made another big decision and added Animal Science as a double major to my degree. This added roughly an extra year to my graduation date but I did not care. I was soaking up knowledge left and right. Extremely grateful that I went back to school when I did, I actually wanted to learn and I cared a lot more.

The AgEconomics program was a huge blessing in disguise. I met so many mentors and was able to network with so many people. The best part was in one of the classes, you have to start a business from scratch. That class was probably one of the hardest classes I have taken due to the amount of work required but I loved everything about it. My business was a cow/calf operation, where I sold preconditioned steers and bred heifers. I loved that class and my Professor Dr. Rister. He was one of the best Professors I have ever had.  I still have all my binders under my bed from those classes, that way when I am ready to open a business I can pull out all my old tools.

One day during my first year at A&M, I was sitting in my statistics class and I saw this girl wearing a Texas Aggie CattleWomen shirt. I actually got the courage to ask her about the shirt (told y’all I was shy) and she told me about this Collegiate Organization and that I should check it out. It took me a whole year before I got the courage to go to one meeting! At that meeting they made us stand up and introduce ourselves. Of course I sat in the back and tried to hide, I was literally ringing with sweat when I had to stand up and say my name and where I was from. I mean I was terrified! Did I mention I am currently the President-Elect for the State Organization? A whole year, I wasted a whole year because I was afraid of what other people would think of me and I didn’t even know the people yet! Crazy! Needless to say, I joined the organization and haven’t look back. I have served as the Treasurer and President for the Texas Aggie CattleWomen, Vice President and currently President-Elect for the Texas CattleWomen and I am also on the Board of Directors for the American National CattleWomen. This organization has given me so much life. I am so thankful for all the people that I have met along the way. While at the time I didn’t realize it was happening but I have been slowly growing. I can speak in front of people without sweating, I can run meetings, I can help host events, and plan them well too. If you have never heard of Texas CattleWomen or are interested in learning more about it, please reach out to me. I would love to help you find a local chapter. Tune in next time for when I finish my college adventures and tell you about the next couple of decisions that have set my soul on fire even more than it already was.

As always, spread some love.

XOXO

Casey