I don’t know about you but this quarantine this past month or so has left me in a mix of emotions. Some days, I am on top of the world and other days it takes everything I have to get out of bed. Why is that? Why does being stuck at home only intensify the emotions you already have?
What most people see when they look at me, is a girl who seems to have it all together. You take a look at my social media and I do my very best to uplift, encourage, and inspire every day. I have an amazing child that deserves so much more than I could possibly every give. I have an amazing job that I love with everything in my soul. I just started a brand-new boutique (The Rustic Pony) that has taken off with all the support everyone has given me. This is literally a dream of mine coming true. I also am part of an amazing company that sells some of the best makeup I have ever worn. I am two classes and a thesis away from getting my Master’s degree, something that I have wanted for a long time. From the outside looking in, it sure seems like I have it all together.
I am here to tell you that I don’t. I am just a normal girl who has a crazy range of emotions to deal with. Just a normal person no matter how many wins she gets never comes close to getting what she really wants. A girl who has days were the tears just fall down her face no matter what she does.
I am here to tell you that life in general is hard and no matter how perfect or great someone else’s live seems; remember they are fighting battles you know nothing about. Trust me, this is coming from someone who suffers from self-esteem, confidence and depression issues. Yes, you read that correctly. I am also someone that works hard every day to stay positive. I do personal development almost every day, I try my best to surround myself with positive people who bring me up instead of drag me down. I show gratitude for everything and everyone in my life. I do my very best to trust in the Lord’s plan but sometimes that just isn’t enough.
I am here to tell you that it is okay. There will be some days that get the best of you. You have to pick yourself up though, dust yourself off, wipe your tears away and know that tomorrow will be better. You have to find something in your life worth fighting for and do whatever you can to better yourself for that reason.
Most of all you have to believe in yourself and know that you are capable of everything you have ever dreamed of. No matter how you feel keep smiling. There will be dark days but know that those days will pass and there will be better days ahead.
Keeping reaching for the stars
As always spread some love, we could all use a little more love