I am a firm believer in that God/the Universe/whatever you believe in has a way of letting you know when it is time to slow down. Sometimes, this can be in subtle hints. Sometimes, it has to hit us directly and if you are like me, it has to physically hit you. Meaning, I have to get really sick or have a bodily injury.
This time it was a bodily injury, have you ever broken a big toe before? Talk about painful! Now, I have been injured before and been through painful events. Broken legs, line drives off knee caps, a broken foot, a collapsed lung, heck I even gave birth without my epidural working, but this was a whole a new level of pain. I think the pain was so bad because it would not stop. All of my other injuries, I was able to get the pain to stop, not this one.
For the first 24 hours, all it did was throb and I mean painfully throb. There was no pain medication that could make it stop. Now that I am about to enter the 36 – 48 hour stage, the pain has slowed down, thankfully. It is just stiff, but if I stand for too long, the throbbing starts.
Looking back, it is kind of funny how this whole thing happened. Me, trying to be the helpful person I am, help load plywood for another lady. Well, needless to say it did not work out well for me. But I am also looking at it from a different perspective. For the month of December, I was planning on doing a deep internal dive. Really focus on my goals, dreams, the person I want to be, and block out all of the distractions. I was on the fence about how to make this happen. On the fence about when to start or if I should even do it. Luckily for me, I now have a few days off and can start the deep dive process.
Bad and unfortunate things are going to happen. That is a part of life. It is how you look at them that determines the outcome. I could be really miserable at home, limping around for the next 2-4 weeks unhappy. Or I can be thankful that it was only a big toe. Thankful for the reminder to slow down. Thankful for the reminder that self-care and self-reflection is important. Next time something not so glamorous happens to you, remember it could always be worse and find the blessings it in.
As always, share some love, we could all use a little more love.