If you have read any of my past blogs or seen any of my social media accounts lately you will know that I am a huge proponent of mindset, growth, and stepping out of your comfort zone. I recently wrote about this amazing transition I have had in the last few months. While I know most of my family has noticed (I sure hope they have), I wasn’t quite sure how much y’all, the public, has noticed (I am pretty good at hiding my feelings….most of the time).
Rewind to this time exactly one year ago. I had Valentine’s Day, my brother’s wedding and my birthday all in a matter of 5 days. I bawled all 7 of those days. Yes. You read that right. I mean everyone needs a good cry now and then but I took it to the extreme.
- Nobody likes to be single on Valentine’s Day. Okay, let’s back up here. The majority of the female population doesn’t like to be single on Valentine’s Day, even though they may not admit it. (Reminder – this is just my opinion). If I am wrong, great, but last year at this time, I know that I did not want to be single. It was another reminder that I was never going to find anybody, that I would never get married or have any more kids. It would just be me and my cows one day. Did I mention when my mind runs, it runs wild?!?
- My brother’s wedding. I love my brother and his wife. They are great together, they love each other, and they are killing it at life. He is my little brother. I knew the day was coming but it came too quick for me. Let me remind you Valentine’s Day was two days before this wedding. In my mind, he was my baby brother, I was supposed to get married first. Then my mind (love when it does this, totally joking here) ran wild again. I was never going to find anyone, etc. etc… I can only imagine what my parents were thinking during those days, they are so amazing in all the support they give me.
- My birthday. This amazing event (I mean how can it not be amazing, I was born on this day!) happened two days after my brother’s wedding. 31. I was officially into my thirties now. You know what I heard instead, my biological clock just ticking away. Then the flood of tears came.
Fast Forward to one year later.
I woke up on Valentine’s Day happy and excited about life. Side note here, Mattie snuck into my room in the middle of the night so I did wake up with some cuddles, my favorite. Seriously though, I am happy with where I am at, I am happy with being alone… okay maybe not ecstatic but I am okay with being alone. I am excited about my birthday, I can’t believe I just typed that but it’s true. My thirties have honestly been some of the best of my life. I am so excited to see what is in store this year. I will say that one year older for me is one year older for Mattie, which I am not too happy about but we will take it one day at a time.
As a society, I feel we put so much pressure on people. When they should get married, when they need to have kids, how Valentine’s Day should be spent showing someone how much you love them. When in reality, it is okay to go against the norm. It is okay to wait until you find the right guy or girl for you. Besides I have learned that you have to learn to love yourself first before you can make anyone else happy – true fact.
Just remember that everyone is at a different season in their life and God has an amazing plan for you. Yes, we wish we knew exactly what that plan was or I do at least but I don’t and neither do you. Instead, I am grateful that I am here at this time right now, getting to do the things I love. I am grateful I have an amazing daughter that loves me unconditionally. I am grateful for the amazing family I have. Shout out to both sets of my parents for making me feel loved on Valentine’s Day, love y’all! I am grateful for this season I am in, for I am constantly learning every day. Next time things aren’t going your way or you are down and out. Take out a pen and paper and write 100 things you are grateful for, yes 100. If it is really hard then take some time to stop and smell the roses. You will get a reminder of all the amazing things you have going on in your life.
As always spread some love
XOXO
Well…today is the day. The first anniversary of my 29th Birthday. This day has been on my mind for the last 6 months at least. Mostly I just panicked. I was obsessively thinking about what I am going to do? Is this the end of my world or something? Overly dramatic I know. I felt panicked because I am not married yet, and not even close to it. Panicking because I am still in school. Panicking because I do not have my own place to live in yet. Panicking because another year is coming which means my baby girl is getting another year older.
Holy Cow, that is a lot of time spent panicking over something that is bound and determined to happen regardless of how I feel about it. This last year, I put a lot more stress on my life than I needed to. I spent so much time worrying about things that honestly do not really matter in the grand scheme of life. Most of my worries are just things that need to happen in this chapter of my life in order for me to take the next step.
So, who cares if I still live with my parents? Who cares if I am still in school or if I am an unmarried woman with a child? I know that I am doing the best I can right now for this chapter of my life. The first anniversary of my 29th birthday…. It is upon me. Funny thing is, I feel like these are going to be some of my best years yet. It is incredible how much such a small thing, like surrounding yourself with people you aspire to be, can change your thinking on things. Take some time to surround yourself with people who love you and lift you up and only want the best for you. Take some time to sit and listen; Whether it be in a church pew or your special place at home. Make some time to think about things and listen. THE message will hit you when you least expect it. Also, learn to love music. Music for me cures almost everything. What music does not cure, laughing sure does. So, laugh loud and laugh often. Yes, even have some of those laughs that involve tears streaming down your face. The big 3-0 year is going to be one for the books, I can already feel it.
As always spread some love, we could all use a little more love.
Casey.Lynn 