Weddings, CattleWomen and More

It is been a while since I have put pen to paper but this has given me the opportunity to think through a lot of things.  Sometimes taking that step back from a situation helps clear our heads and enables us to look at things from a different viewpoint.

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There have been a lot of beautiful things that have happened lately. Roughly a month ago, I was able to witness my brother say I do to his new wife.  The place was fantastic and the wedding was great, however, my favorite part was watching both of them share their vows for each other.  You could honestly see the love they had for each other beaming out of them.   To love someone that deeply has to be a feeling that is out of this world.  I know I am a little late on this but I had to share it.  To my brother, if you are reading this, I hope that you know how incredibly proud I am of you.  You amaze me every day with your selflessness to serve.  I look you up to you in so many ways.  I know most of the time we spend together we normally end up picking on each other but just know that is out of love.  It has been amazing watching you grow up to the man you are today.  Thank you for stepping in and playing a role in Mattie’s life, watching y’all two at the wedding brought more love to my heart than you can ever imagine.  It brings tears to my eyes writing about it now.  So thank you.

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This past weekend I was able to rejuvenate my love for CattleWomen.  We spent the weekend at our annual Women In Ranching program and it was a blast.  Being surrounded by women with like minds is an incredible thing.  I was able to sit and watch ladies of all experience levels come together to make a weekend successful.  The one thing I loved most about all this is the friendships I have made and continue to make.  There were times in these last few months that have been pretty lonely, not really quite sure I had any friends at some points, but these ladies have changed that.  It is not often that you can get a bunch of ladies in a room together and have everyone get along.  My favorite moment of the whole weekend was Saturday evening, killing some time before dinner.  I sat down at a table with two other ladies and within 10 minutes, not only was our table full, we had a circle of probably almost 15 ladies, talking, sharing stories, and getting to know one another.  This event has put me on fire and I can not wait to finalize the Fall Tour and get the ladies on board.

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There have been some struggles the past few months but everyone has struggled in one way or another, it is how you look at those struggles that changes your way of thinking.  Keep pushing forward to be the best you can be. Keep growing in your faith and as always share some love, we could all use a little more love.

“I will Soar on Wings like Eagles..”

As I was driving home last night, this topic was really weighing on my heart and mind and I felt I needed to share.  Yesterday was a good day.  No, yesterday was a great day.  Texas CattleWomen had an informational session in Decatur and the best possible outcome happened that could have, we got a new local started.  How can all these great things be happening but yet it feels as if I am not doing enough or the results that I am getting are not good enough.

Over the past couple of weeks, I have really noticed how much and how bad negative thoughts can affect someone.  Trust me, I get them all the time and normally always assume the worst.  Why, why do we do that?  I can work my tail off at something and nail it and get told that what I did was great and yet I am still so unsure.  It is crazy how the mind works, why some people feel certain ways and others can’t.  How self-confidence can make or break you.  How it can be so hard to genuinely accept that – Hey! You are doing a dang good job!

Just know that You are enough! When you get that compliment, say thank you and enjoy it.  Relish in it and give yourself a pat on the back.  Believe in yourself as much as other people do – this is HUGE, something I struggle with a lot.  It is okay to have bad days, everyone has bad days, but get up, dust yourself off and make tomorrow better. No one is perfect, no one.  Smile, you never know who is watching or wanting to be just like you.

Find things that make you happy and do them.  Learn to be you and don’t let anyone take that away from you.  And sometimes you just need a three-hour jam session of some Jesus music.  This next week I challenge you to do something out of the norm, whether that be saying hello to someone on the street, trying some new food, or even picking up a new hobby. Have an amazing week and as always share some love, we could all use some more love.

 

 

Sliding into 2019

2019 started with my foot on the gas pedal!  A quiet New Year’s Eve evening with Mattie popping fireworks with my dad and me, which has turned into a tradition, has turned into a non-stop roller coaster from Mattie’s extracurricular activities to starting a new job to my CattleWomen to school starting.  My life has been busy busy busy but I wouldn’t have it any other way!

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I am definitely excited to see what is in store for 2019.  2018 was amazing overall but I was glad to see it go.  A new year always means a new slate to me.  A new year to make a difference and to live life to the fullest. 2018 started off with a bang and slowly dwindled down so I can only imagine what 2019 has in store.  It is true, my thirties have already been better than my twenties and I am just getting started.

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It is crazy how your path can take you to different places, with different people, and you learn and become interested in different things.  I always knew that I had a creative side in me.  I mean, I did originally want to go to College for a photography degree. The more time I spend working the more and more I fall in love with it. I was sitting at my desk the other day working on a design for a new website and I thought to myself, I should have been a communication major or something equivalent.  I wish I would have gotten more experience in that field in school but one of my classes this semester is Ag Design so I am super excited about that.

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God continues to bless me every day and I am so thankful for all the wonderful opportunities that I have been given and my amazing parents for making those opportunities possible for me.

2019 is going to be a year of rebuilding for me, a year of growing up, a year of finding new hobbies and pursuing them, a year of traveling (gotta love my CattleWomen ladies), a year of making new memories and a year of cherishing everything and everyone around me.

Here is to 2019 and I hope your year is the best that is can possibly be!

As always share some love, we can always use some more love!

To My Heart – Mattie Moo

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This blog post has been weighing on my heart for some time now.  I have written it probably a 1,000 times in my head and it still isn’t and will never be perfect enough for you.  You were the game changer for me, the life changer, the, I wanted something more for you changer.  Words could never describe the feelings I have for you, but I will try. This is for you Mattie Moo.

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I remember it just like it was yesterday, the first time I felt you move.  At that moment things begin to change.  You were more than just a heartbeat, you were a real person.  From the first time I saw your squishy head fly past me to when we left the hospital, I knew it was going to be me and you kiddo and that it would always be me and you.

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It wasn’t always easy although you were an angel of a baby.  I was back to work before you could blink and you were off to daycare.  It was hard being without you the majority of the days and weekends but sometimes those were the sacrifices I had to make.  Sometimes you have to do what needs to be done and that included working.  I have to thank your grandparents (both sets) because, without them, we would be lost.

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I remember the first steps you took and when you finally decided to grow hair.  The thing I miss the most is holding and rocking you to sleep.  I still get snuggles for now, but I know those won’t last forever.  I made a big decision and we moved towns and I went back to school full time.  I know things for you can be different at times and I know you may not always understand but I hope one day you do.  The things I do, I do for you.  I want you to see the passion and desires I have to follow my dreams.  I want you to know that your dreams are possible and to never give up.

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You are the most loving, the kindest, and the most caring kid I know.  You have the sweetest soul and your love for Jesus, animals, and people shines through you.  Please don’t lose that.  Life is going to be tough but just know that you can make it through anything and I will be right there with you along the way.

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You never seem to amaze me with your infectious belly laugh and your toothless grin.  Keep being you Mattie and never lose that. I have heard that children in heaven actually pick their parents out before-hand.  If that is the case or if God chose me, I am so thankful for that.  You teach me things every day and we learn how to “tackle” life together.  I love you sweetheart and I always will.  Don’t lose your faith in God or me because together we can make it through anything.  You are about to turn another year older and get another year wiser, just know you will always be my baby.  I love you Mattie Moo.

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Cruising Through Life, One Life Lesson at A Time

The past couple of weeks, I have learned some life lessons.  Some I have known for a while but needed to hear again.  Some that are new but needed to be learned.  Some that are hard and while they may not be something I wanted to learn, I learned them anyway.

Slow down and take the time to enjoy the things around you.

Okay, we all know I have shared this plenty of times.  However, God sent me a reminder to slow down when I reached down to pick something up out of a bag and my back pretty much gave out.  Needless to say, two days in bed makes you realize that sometimes the things we think are so important at the time really are not that important.  I know we all have deadlines to meet, projects to turn in, work that needs to be done, but don’t forget to take some time for yourself.

Sometimes even when you love someone, the best thing to do is walk away.

                Relationships can be tough and when I say relationships, I mean all relationships.  The relationship with your siblings, your parents, your significant other, your friends and family.  I have learned that communication is key, but Trust, you can’t get anywhere without trust.  I know that in the grand scheme of things, relationships shouldn’t be hard. They should be fun and happy.  I mean you only get one life, right?  Sometimes, it doesn’t matter how much you care about someone, the only way to fix things is to walk away, pray, and let the Big Man upstairs do his thing.

Do whatever it is that brings joy into your life.

                I know that if I am not happy, then it not only affects everything else going on in my life but Mattie’s too.  Life is too short to be unhappy all the time.  Be joyful.  Find your purpose, find something that brings you joy and do that.  Yes, there are going to be people that may not quite understand but if they are that important to you, they will stay around regardless.

Always have a good pair of mud boots to work in

                You never know when your phone might ring and you may get that chance to go work cattle or go hunting.   Always make sure you have a good pair of “work” boots ready for any occasion.  I failed at this last weekend, but my sweet friend helped me out and I survived the day.  It was my first time actually getting out there and working cattle and I must say, I just fell in love even more.

Make sure you have at least one goal in life and work towards that goal

                Sometimes we get lost in the hustle and bustle and lose sight of what we are really working for.  Make a goal, even if it is only one and work towards that goal.  My big-time goal, that I wake up every morning and think about? I want a house on a hill with a wrap around porch so I can sit out and watch my cattle grazing. I realized that I am not getting any younger, after my weekly chiropractor visits, and I need to start working harder towards this goal.  On a positive note, I only have about a year left of graduate school and most of all my classes are online, so if you are in the market for a full-time employee, let me know!

We all know that life can be hard at times, just learn to look at all the positive things and suddenly life may not really seem that hard.

As always share some love, we could all use a little more love.

Learning From Life – The Ups and Downs

Priorities.  This word has been on my mind for the last two weeks.  What are your priorities?  I feel like every person has different priorities depending on what stage of “life” they are in.  I know my priorities have changed immensely over the last couple years.  Sometimes, the changes have been for the better and sometimes they have been for the worse.  I think that is all part of life, living, learning and readjusting when something you thought was important turned out to be not so important.

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As I have gotten older, my perspectives on a lot of things have changed.  I can sit in class or walk the halls and hear so many different conversations that people carry on.  I think back to when I was their age and look at how different my mindset is now.  There are so many times that I want to tell them it’s not worth it or that probably is not the smartest idea, but then they lose their ability to live and learn. My past and my experiences have made me the person that I am today, while I may not be proud of all the decisions that I made, I know I learned from them and for that I am thankful.

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What are some of your priorities? School? Career? Family time?  Is God in your priorities?  I recently started a Bible Study at home and this topic really hit home.  While your things in life are important, how important is it going to be 5 years from now?  How about when you are old and grey?  Now don’t get me wrong, I believe wholeheartedly that you should push to be all that you can be.  I know that is what I want.  To make something for myself, for my family and specifically, my daughter so she is able to say “Wow, look that’s my mom!”  While pushing and driving for your future, don’t forget about the biggest priority of them all.  He is with you through every success and every failure and He is there to pick you up along the way.

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I got to finalize one of my priorities today, my Master’s degree program.  It felt so good to know how close I am and how it is just within my grasps.  Being able to nail down when I can finish only boosted my desire to continue to push forward.

Whatever stage of life you are in or whatever your priorities are, know that you have someone right there along with you on your journey.  You are never alone!

As always share some love, we could all use a little more love!

Questions and Answers

Today is supposed to be an exciting day.  A fresh start to the new semester.  Tackling yet another semester of college.  Now don’t get me wrong, I am excited about progressing toward my end goal, but right now it feels like I am a snail slowly making that progress.  I signed up for Graduate school because I wanted to accomplish one of my goals.  I wanted the chance or opportunity to hopefully land a better job.  I wanted to continue to learn because I felt behind since I did not grow up in the agricultural industry.  I wanted more time to figure out what exactly it was that I wanted to do.  It is crazy how over the last 5 years, my whole life plans have changed dramatically.  I am thankful for those changes, even though some may be scary at times.  I can feel myself developing and getting more in tune with what I enjoy and hope to do one day.

I still hit those brick walls though, wondering if this is the right thing to be doing. Wondering if I am wasting my time. Wondering if this will ever benefit Mattie.  Thinking, do I really have another four years of school in me if I want to pursue my Ph.D.?  So many questions with so many different answers and outcomes.  Torn between wanting just a simple life and making a difference in people’s life.

As I am running these questions through my head, I know the answer to each and every one of them.  It is accepting those answers that may be hard to do at times.  I know God has a plan for me and I know I have to trust him.  Handing the reigns over to Someone who you have been distant with lately is not an easy task to do.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the hustle and bustle of things that we forget about the important things.  I know I do.  I know I should spend more time praying and less time wondering.  More time trusting and less time questioning.  It can be a struggle at times.  Moving two steps forward just to take one step backward. Life is hard at times, but I also know life can be rewarding.  You just have to learn to trust the process.

I hope everyone has a fabulous week, whether that be at school or work or living the retired life.  I hope you get to do what you love and enjoy every minute of it.  Cheers to a new semester, one semester closer to accomplishing yet another one of my goals.

Persistance, Laughter, and Happiness

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The last couple of weeks have flown by.  I cannot believe that summer is almost over and school will begin again.  I have really been doing my best to have Mattie time as well as doing as much for Texas CattleWomen as I can.  We have been having informational session across the state of Texas the last couple of weeks.  I was beginning to get a little discouraged as I felt I had not made the impact that I was hoping for.  However, this past weekend, God reassured me that with determination, persistence, and hard work, things will begin to work out.  In the near future, there will be a new local chapter emerging in Texas CattleWomen.  Words cannot begin to describe how incredibly excited I am about this.  God knew exactly what I was needing to make me feel that my work was making an impact.  Concho Valley CattleWomen will be the new chapter.  I was able to visit with these ladies this past weekend in San Angelo.  They are some of the sweetest ladies I have ever met.  One thing I know for sure about CattleWomen, no matter what the outcome is, you will always make new friends and not just some new friends, some lifetime friends. I have gotten some renewed energy from that event and look forward to the upcoming events that we are having in Georgetown, Stephenville, and Cleburne.  If you are a CattleWomen, meaning you love beef, and are interested in either joining a local or creating one, please feel free to reach out to me!

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Mattie and I were able to make a trip to the Houston Zoo the past couple of weeks as well.  While it was hootttt! It was a blast.  If you have never seen of an okapi before then you should check them out.  It is one of her favorite animals and one of the first ones we saw.  We were also able to see a baby elephant that was about three weeks old, it only weighed over 300 pounds that’s all.  Jeffrey was also able to join us while we went to the aquarium in Houston.  It was pretty interesting if you have never been, however, I recommend not going if it is raining, you will miss out on the rides outside.

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Overall, life has been crazy, but a beautiful crazy.  I could not ask for anything better.  I am healthy, Mattie is healthy, we are both happy and things seems to be looking up in the right direction. We also have Jeffrey who we spend time and get to be silly with.  Laughter cures everything and is one of my favorite things to do.   In addition to all the great things already going on, I was also able to start a new job recently that I am super excited about! It is with Ranch TV that is a program with Texas A&M AgriLife Extension Services.  While it is just a student worker position while I am in school, but it is a step into the industry. I will be able to do projects and programs that I love doing, so it is a win-win for me.

As always share some love, we could all use a little more love.

Waiting Rooms and A Good Music Playlist

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Sometimes, there are things in life that can bring you down.  There are things in life that can give you wake up calls, and there are things in life that can bring you joy.  I am hoping that you get to experience the more joyful times, I, however, have all of the above over the last couple of weeks.  It is crazy how life can be from time to time.  When everything seems to be lined up perfectly or going well and you often have to wonder when that next “bad” thing is going to happen.  I have had an amazing year this past year and have really tried to stay positive despite the hiccups that occur, I mean it is life, nothing is ever perfect or that easy.  I have often struggled with listening to what people say too much and changed my way of doing things based on what one particular person may or may not have said.  When in reality, I should listen to everyone’s opinion about particular topics and form my own.  I think the way society and the world are today, it is so much easier to just follow the crowd.  While if this is what you choose to do, there is nothing wrong with that.  I, however, want something more.

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I was recently told that my writing was just about another trip I was on and that it was not cutting it, or that is how I took it.  It took me some time to think through this as writing in particular about anything I was doing was a huge step for me.  Then I read a blog by Curt Pate Stockmanship, it was exactly what I needed to hear at the right time.  After reading it, I came to the conclusion that I know all too well, but just need to be reminded every once in a while.  You can’t make everyone happy and there is no point in trying.  Do what you do, write how you want to write and be who you want to be.  Those that matter don’t mind and those that mind don’t matter.

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That wake-up call was one that I knew was coming but I was not quite ready for.  I write this as I am sitting in the hospital waiting for my dad to get out of his back surgery.  Back surgery.  You hear so many things about that kind of surgery.  While he should be in and out in an hour, it still makes you realize how important family is.  He is my superman, so helping to take care of him will be quite the change.  He has always been my rock that has been there when I needed anything.  Looks like I get to return the favor and I can foresee lots of grass mowing in my future, or for the next 6 weeks anyway.

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There are so many things that bring me joy in my life, too many to name but Mattie is a huge part of that.  It is amazing to watch her grow and see the person she is becoming.  She is definitely my mini-me and sometimes that is really scary, but she also has her own way of doing things.  I am looking forward to the weekend as well as my best friend will finally be home.  Surround yourself with people that love you but people that also push you to be better.  The future looks bright, make sure you make the most of it!

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As always spread some love, we could all use a little more love.

When Life Happens

IMG_1314                            What do you do when you don’t know what to do?  I believe everyone has reached this point at some point or another in their life.  What do you do when it seems like you can’t go anymore?  What do you do when it seems like every time you take a step forward, you end up taking two steps back?  What do you do when you finally decide to take a chance and open your heart up for someone only for them to walk away?  How can you carry on when you have a heart so big and so much love to give? What do you do when you begin to question yourself on every decision you have made so far?  What do you do when you don’t know if you are on the right track?  What if you feel stuck and wonder if maybe you should have taken a job instead of going to graduate school?  What do you do when all you want is to make sure that your kid is happy and has more and better opportunities than you do? What if you don’t know if you are doing anything right? I hate it when life gets hard and the days come when you just don’t understand.  What if you know what you want in life but you don’t know which step to take to get there?  What do you do when you don’t know what to do?

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You shed a few tears.  And then you probably shed quite a few more.  You slowly begin to pick up the pieces and you hit your knees hard.  You pray. You pray hard and you pray daily.  You have faith that the Lord has an amazing plan for you.  You trust in Him and the process no matter how hard or how much you may not understand.  You pick up those pieces and you begin each day with a smile.  You laugh. You laugh hard and you laugh often.  You grab a good book and dive in to clear your head.  You reach out to the people who mean the most to you.  You talk to that best friend at 3 o’clock in the morning because they know you need them.  You spend time with the one who believes in you the most, who sees more potential in you than you could ever know.  You reach out to the one who lives in another state to have them remind you that life is hard and everyone struggles, but it is about owning that struggle.  You even reach out to the ones who tell you what you need to hear, even though it may not be something that you WANT to hear.  You be yourself because you are special just the way you are.  You continue to love because that is who you are.  You continue to push forward because that is what you know how to do.  You keep going and one day, one special day, you will be amazed at how much you really have accomplished.

As always spread some love, the world could always use a little more love.

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